You

You’re quite a guy. You’re half a man and half a boy, quite the best mix of both. I don’t mind about it at all. You’re just the one who fits perfect into my dreams and the hardest I try to forget you, the world just proofs me we belong together. There’s no such meaning in my life without you in it.

All About A Choice… Cause I’ve Made Mine.

Not gonna tell you not to read this. You should, you really do.

I tried, I swear I tried the hardest to get to you. I tried to figure out what would be the girl of your dreams like but no, I’m not gonna change. I’m still myself, maybe even more myself than never, I’ve got this point. And I’m proud – for me. You should be too.

I don’t know how much you know or how much you think you know about my feelings. Even when I had told you everything I ever felt, you never made it easier. You never showed me you really knew, what makes me feel like a stupid jerk who used all of her courage for nothing. Yeah, courage, I needed a lot of that.

But I’m writing because I give up. I tried before and maybe I won’t get that right now. But we are way too different. Things we talked about yesterday, things you said which I don’t believe in. Maybe that’s the point. I know it doesn’t work. Even if you believe a year is enough to forget someone who’s far… I know it isn’t. I’ve tried this before. Here’s the tip: it REALLY NEVER WORKS, just make it worse. Until you find another one or you get so sick of waiting for true love you give up everything about your heart and goes back to that cold person you were before. And I really wish I can go back for that.

Thanks for the memories. The memories that have been hurting me for over a year.

You make me cry, you make me insane, you make me different. But not anymore.

 

I guess this is the end.

All About Choices

Well, right. Choices. They’re so many, specially on my age – 18, whoever asks. But some choices are made up in my head, but still depends on people to get real.

Someday

As the sun goes down, we will be together: we’ll lay under the moonlight and watch its shadows during the whole night, counting all the stars up there and then, when the morning starts, you’ll kiss me and I’ll know I’ll be forever yours.

 

My hopes are way too high you could never ever imagine.

Don’t say you’re sorry

You know what? I’m on the point I just think you’re not sorry. I know everyone’s at the bones, but that doesn’t mean you can treat them the way you want to. If you’re stressed, no matter, but don’t be stressed coz other people are LIVING.

That’s what I needed to say, even if you’ll not read this.

all i have ;

i was missing you you were miles away he was close to me i let him stay then i closed my eyes he almost felt the same but when the morning broke i cried out your name if id only known it would break us id done anything just to save us cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all youre all i have youve forgiven me but it doesnt change the guilt i feel when you mention his name no more innocence how to trust again wanna believe that you wont do the same and everytime we fight were getting closer i slowly die inside im scared its over cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all youre all i have your love for me was always there maybe too much for me to care now that i know i messed it up id give my all to take it back cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all YOURE ALL I HAVE +

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A Message Not To Be Read

I really don’t need to say again you SHOULDN’T read this, right? Yeah, you know who you are.

My Very Deepest Secrets

You. Yeah, you, you know who you are. I suggest you don’t read this or maybe I could hurt your feelings.

It’s a warning

If you have EVER liked this friendship, I suggest you to accept when I make my choices, ‘coz my life includes several things. You know you’re a part of them – a great part of it, like a delightful piece of cake with a cherry on top -, but there are a lot of people who are a part of it too. I know I’m obstinate and way too proud, but I’m proud to say I always know when I’m wrong and I admit it. But I’ve already done it, even not wrong. I know how to do it to fix something, but it didn’t work and I’m not doing it again. Not again. Not anymore.

I’ve changed. So much has changed. Things around me have done and so have I.

I’m sorry, but it’s completely your choice. Cannot help.

Guys

Hello, dudes! Here’s something I’ve been thinking about.

A few days ago, me and some friends were talking about love, the perfect boy/girlfriend etc. Well, in my opinion, the perfect one is that who likes you just the way you are and who you like the same way. By the way, before being lovers, we should be nice friends and trust each other.

But nobody said it’s easy to find true love – and even if someone has done, it’s a lie. Some are lucky – and less than 1% of the whole world. Some keep waiting. For so long. Just like me.

I’ve already been in love. I am in love. But only once I was loved back and it’s over now. But I’m happy when I say I’ve got the best friend in the whole world, who is still far from me when talking about distance, but is so close when talking about feeling. He fights when I’m wrong, hugs me when I’m right… laughes when I’m funny. However it is, it’s always perfect. I can get mad, but it just goes away when he cames back to me.

Whatever. What I mean is that I’m not that beautiful neighter am too sexy for my shirt LOL but I’m a simple girl. A smart one. If I don’t have someone, doesn’t mean I don’t want someone, but I don’t need a lot of boys like sharks around me. Don’t want a lot of guys falling at my feet. I just wanted someone who I love loving me. That’s all I wish. No need to come in a white horse, unless he’s a prince and wants it. I just want somebody who loves me like I am, while he’s being himself.

xx

C.