My (not so) Anonymous Life

November 30, 2009

You

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You’re quite a guy. You’re half a man and half a boy, quite the best mix of both. I don’t mind about it at all. You’re just the one who fits perfect into my dreams and the hardest I try to forget you, the world just proofs me we belong together. There’s no such meaning in my life without you in it.

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November 17, 2009

All About A Choice… Cause I’ve Made Mine.

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Not gonna tell you not to read this. You should, you really do.

I tried, I swear I tried the hardest to get to you. I tried to figure out what would be the girl of your dreams like but no, I’m not gonna change. I’m still myself, maybe even more myself than never, I’ve got this point. And I’m proud – for me. You should be too.

I don’t know how much you know or how much you think you know about my feelings. Even when I had told you everything I ever felt, you never made it easier. You never showed me you really knew, what makes me feel like a stupid jerk who used all of her courage for nothing. Yeah, courage, I needed a lot of that.

But I’m writing because I give up. I tried before and maybe I won’t get that right now. But we are way too different. Things we talked about yesterday, things you said which I don’t believe in. Maybe that’s the point. I know it doesn’t work. Even if you believe a year is enough to forget someone who’s far… I know it isn’t. I’ve tried this before. Here’s the tip: it REALLY NEVER WORKS, just make it worse. Until you find another one or you get so sick of waiting for true love you give up everything about your heart and goes back to that cold person you were before. And I really wish I can go back for that.

Thanks for the memories. The memories that have been hurting me for over a year.

You make me cry, you make me insane, you make me different. But not anymore.

 

I guess this is the end.

October 29, 2009

all i have ;

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i was missing you you were miles away he was close to me i let him stay then i closed my eyes he almost felt the same but when the morning broke i cried out your name if id only known it would break us id done anything just to save us cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all youre all i have youve forgiven me but it doesnt change the guilt i feel when you mention his name no more innocence how to trust again wanna believe that you wont do the same and everytime we fight were getting closer i slowly die inside im scared its over cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all youre all i have your love for me was always there maybe too much for me to care now that i know i messed it up id give my all to take it back cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all YOURE ALL I HAVE +

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Now playing: All i Have- The Veronicas
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October 19, 2009

A Message Not To Be Read

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I really don’t need to say again you SHOULDN’T read this, right? Yeah, you know who you are. (more…)

October 12, 2009

My Very Deepest Secrets

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You. Yeah, you, you know who you are. I suggest you don’t read this or maybe I could hurt your feelings.

(more…)

August 5, 2009

Guys

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Hello, dudes! Here’s something I’ve been thinking about.

A few days ago, me and some friends were talking about love, the perfect boy/girlfriend etc. Well, in my opinion, the perfect one is that who likes you just the way you are and who you like the same way. By the way, before being lovers, we should be nice friends and trust each other.

But nobody said it’s easy to find true love – and even if someone has done, it’s a lie. Some are lucky – and less than 1% of the whole world. Some keep waiting. For so long. Just like me.

I’ve already been in love. I am in love. But only once I was loved back and it’s over now. But I’m happy when I say I’ve got the best friend in the whole world, who is still far from me when talking about distance, but is so close when talking about feeling. He fights when I’m wrong, hugs me when I’m right… laughes when I’m funny. However it is, it’s always perfect. I can get mad, but it just goes away when he cames back to me.

Whatever. What I mean is that I’m not that beautiful neighter am too sexy for my shirt LOL but I’m a simple girl. A smart one. If I don’t have someone, doesn’t mean I don’t want someone, but I don’t need a lot of boys like sharks around me. Don’t want a lot of guys falling at my feet. I just wanted someone who I love loving me. That’s all I wish. No need to come in a white horse, unless he’s a prince and wants it. I just want somebody who loves me like I am, while he’s being himself.

xx

C.

July 29, 2009

Personality Crisis

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I gotta look like a SO problematic person. But I don’t mind, that’s none of ANYBODY’s business, then it’s still my own problems. If it matters to you, imagine it’s just another of those boring books about how to act. Or not, but the truth is things are getting a little outta place. Or am I losing myself? Don’t matter.

But I’m having a serious problem with my own personality. It’s calling me to act and fight for what I want, as I always did, but the person “me” is telling me not to do anything, just keep it on me and forget the rest. Ha, it seems easy but BELIEVE ME, it sucks when you’re fighting inside.

And just for you to know, YOU BOY, listen to me.

UNLESS FOR NOW, I’M STILL FIGHTING TO GET YOU. UNTIL I GET THAT TIRED TO ACT LIKE A FOOL (AS I’M DOING RIGHT NOW) AND GIVE UP, I’LL KEEP FIGHTING. MAYBE I’M A GOOD FRIEND, BUT THAT’S DEFINITELY NOT HALF OF WHAT I WANNA BE.
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“She was scared, unprepared, lost in the dark. Falling apart, I can survive with you by my side.”
Now playing: Demi Lovato – Two Worlds Collide
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May 17, 2009

Romance?

Filed under: life — shitjusthappens @ 11:46 pm
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I always dreamed my life was going to be a fairytale. The first thing I learnt when I was 13: it will never happen. But I dreamed for so long and I still did this. Now, I’m 18 and I guess I lost a (big) part of my life dreaming way too much.

Well, now I’m old enough to say I want to stop it. I’m sick of it, I’m done. I want to live life and let myself know new things and new people. I’m open to my own life, as I wasn’t before.

Let the seasons begin.

April 30, 2009

Ultrafast Open-Hearted

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I’ve got fifteen minutes before I go out.

I’m worried about my job. I’m worried about my quality. I don’t wanna be a teacher because I want to be a teacher, but I wanna be a teacher because I can be a teacher.

I’m missing some friends. I’m missing those friends who spent their evenings with me three years ago, at the Internet, as the real world would never matter.

I’m missing the life I had before, that one I used to think was too hard – but I didn’t know anything when I thought that.

I’m thinking way too much about someone who I shouldn’t. Not that I shouldn’t, it’s just that it would be better if I didn’t. But I am, and it’s getting worse everyday and I’m going to the point of no return: I almost can’t take it.

I need some reasons. Someone?

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