My (not so) Anonymous Life

November 4, 2009

All About Choices

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Well, right. Choices. They’re so many, specially on my age – 18, whoever asks. But some choices are made up in my head, but still depends on people to get real. (more…)

October 29, 2009

all i have ;

Filed under: poetry — shitjusthappens @ 12:45 am
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i was missing you you were miles away he was close to me i let him stay then i closed my eyes he almost felt the same but when the morning broke i cried out your name if id only known it would break us id done anything just to save us cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all youre all i have youve forgiven me but it doesnt change the guilt i feel when you mention his name no more innocence how to trust again wanna believe that you wont do the same and everytime we fight were getting closer i slowly die inside im scared its over cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all youre all i have your love for me was always there maybe too much for me to care now that i know i messed it up id give my all to take it back cause youre all i have when the world comes down on me youre the one i love and i’m begging you to see youre all youre all youre all i have you are you are the one i love youre all youre all YOURE ALL I HAVE +

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Now playing: All i Have- The Veronicas
via FoxyTunes

October 12, 2009

My Very Deepest Secrets

Filed under: life — shitjusthappens @ 1:42 am
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You. Yeah, you, you know who you are. I suggest you don’t read this or maybe I could hurt your feelings.

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May 20, 2009

Betrayed

Filed under: life,poetry — shitjusthappens @ 3:48 pm
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Betrayed – as I’ve been:
I’m lost and I can’t seem
To see why it’s happening;
Couldn’t see it changing.

Lost in tragedy and in vain,
Can’t feel nothing but the pain
That means to suck all the good memories
We had such a nice stories.

Now I do nothing but I cry
And I want to stop and I still try
But nothing’s as worst as this:
I’ve been betrayed and it is

So much more than I can take,
So I decided it to break.
Don’t mind about cynicism
Neighter about your me-ism:

I’m going to forget ‘us’
And stay beside who I can trust.
No more betrayals, no more tears,
I won’t trust anymore, so I won’t fear.

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Now playing: Adele – Daydreamer
via FoxyTunes

May 8, 2009

Grandma

Filed under: life,worries — shitjusthappens @ 6:08 pm
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I’m sick of this. I’m sick of this all. I may be sounded like riot now, but I don’t care. I just need to have the guts to say all I’m thinking and specially all I’m feeling.

Why all the things are happening at the same time to me? It feels like wasn’t way too much the vestibular exams in the end (and in the middle) of the year and also my family acting like a crap – day by day, worst. It feels like wasn’t way too much I had been caught and I’d been feeling what I’m feeling, because it doesn’t matter. I think I could stand it, I really could – with a little help from my friends, which I’ve been getting more and more, which is making me stronger and able to still living. But then comes my grandma and her fucking diabetes.Grandma has already lost one of her toes and she’s going to lose another – I know it. I studied it. I’m watching it happen. Fortunately, she won’t have to lose her whole foot – I hope not too soon, anyway. She’s 81 and, since she was born, the doctors told her mom she wasn’t going to survive so long. But she is. She watched her husband, my granpa, die, and she watched my grandparents, my dad’s parents, die – even when they were younger than her and she always asked them to take care of me and my brother. I know she’s strong, but I’m afraid I’ll soon lose her. I’m sure someday I’ll do and it came to me as soon as I could try to get my reason back.

I’m scared. I’m scared of losing the only person who is beside me all the time. I’m afraid of losing the woman I most love in this annoying and non-sense life. I’m scared of giving all up without her support and I hope you all, please, don’t let me do it. I’ll do whatever I dreamed and whatever I want – cheers to her.

I love you, old and wonderful woman. I love you, best friend. I love you, grandma.

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